In my younger years, I used to fear dying and
the end of me and nothing more. No heaven.
No paradise. No eternal life. Nothing, like
atheists believe.

Then I had a minor epiphany. If I died and there
was nothing, there would be no me to worry about it.

Now for reasons, I cannot fully explain, even if all
the NDEs with their encouraging tales of afterlives,
even if all the paradises religions claim exist after
death, are all just illusionary, I just don’t care if
there’s nothing and if I die and become obliterated
into it.

This liberating attitude came after I was face to face
with a cancer intent on killing me, and I didn’t care
about that either. It was as if a Zen so what attitude
had been inexplicably implanted in me.

And I’m liking this liberating and better attitude about
death and dying. And because I’m like a free spirit
without a girlfriend or a wife, it will be easy for me to
let go of this life without worrying about leaving a
loved one behind. And I see Death as a friend
and not as a foe that when the time comes I’ll
calmly welcome and surrender to.

Bob Boyd